Day 202: Some good news

I finally got in contact with the only girlfriend (Joy) I wanted to keep from the bunch of bad apples (that I once called "friends") and we missed each other. We were both busy studying for respective events so we were just busy. She still loves me and I still love her and all is right with the world.

Onto more good news...for those of you who know me, and I'm all about mitigating any good accomplishments because I hate bragging more than anything else, I'm going to step out of my shell a little and tell you something. We got our Organic test results back and I did fine. Better than fine actually. I...kind of...well...got the highest grade on the test? Thank goodness he didn't call me out and say "Jessica got the highest grade on the exam" but it was pretty sweet to figure it out. In other good news, the class did so crappy (the average was 54) he's adding 10 points to everyone's score. I never count that stuff (he's done that twice now) but it's pretty sweet to know I've got a decent exam average. I mean, really freaking sweet.

The Physics test went fine. I did pull a Calvin on one question (I couldn't figure out how the numbers worked so I wrote a paragraph about why there should be a change in temperature) but I could care less.

If only my professor provided me with such a loophole...

I've decided if I come out with not-the-best-grade due to my circumstances...I'm going to deal with it. No tears. No pouts. No pissy fits. I'm just going to study my ass of second semester and kick butt on the Physics portion of the MCAT. If I can't fix the past, I can learn from it and improve my future.

So now I'm going to keep studying Physics concepts (specifically momentum and impulse and things that involve Greek letters), watch some "Dexter" (don't tell me!) and study some more for my final on Wednesday.

Day 134: Nice weather and moods

I had some extra time today so I thought I would blog. I know how excited that makes you all ;)

Anyway, I've decided to work on "not sweating the small stuff." And this sentiment deals mainly with friends and such but I think I'm letting it apply to school. There are things you can't change after the fact (like a not-so-hot lab score) and then there are things you can (such as studying like a maniac for upcoming exams) change before the fact. I know, I know, I'm a little late on the uptake but at least I got it.

I saw my friend Joy's cat for her Anatomy class. It's all dead and in a box and they named it Butters. I can't wait for Gross Anatomy where I get to hang out with a cadaver. (Seriously.)

Physics is still the absolute bane of my existence. That professor blows. Hard.

I'm learning to identify patterns in alkene reactions (Organic) so that's sweet.

I've realized/decided that Biology is going to be sheer memorization. No real concepts. No real understanding. Just stuff you gotta know. ...uhh...fun?

And my moods have been on the upswing mainly as a result of ... the weather? And family and friends that care. And just getting my act together and getting myself out of these slumps. I can't depend on others for everything. That's just irrational.

Day 130: Stuff

I'm sure you're all scintillated by the title of this entry. I find it quite descriptive and incredibly cliffhanger-like. And as I'm sure you all can tell, I've pretty much lost my mind.

I tend to keep this blog school-focused because a friend of mine said it's usually better, and less drama filled, when your business isn't all over the internet. That is true. However, I'm going to go into some feelings now so those of you who weren't looking for that well, you can stop reading now.

School is going fine. My social life is somewhat fine. Lately, I've been in a funk. Or several. My family's a little concerned and to be honest, I don't know if they should or shouldn't. That's how out of it I am. I can't even critically assess my own mental state and who the heck knows what that means. I still feel focused (academically anyway) and I'm developing more of a rapport with certain professors and that's all good, but I think personally and socially, I'm lacking.

I've got this amazing girlfriend Joy who is the bomb diggity. I'm attempting to emulate her because she is the shiz. She's married, in her mid-twenties and going to be a pharmacist. She's the best freaking person you could have as a friend and, sadly, even she can't make up for whatever I feel like I'm lacking right now.

I'm not feeling like myself (whoever that is) and I can't seem to shake it off. I guess I just need some time to figure it out ... or something. Maybe it'll come to me and I can rectify it. Or hopefully I can just snap out of it.

I'm hoping for an epiphany right now.

Alas, enough about me and now back to Organic and then Physics and then at some point Bio. My boyfriends ask so much of me.

Oh and I did fine on my Organic test and am awaiting the results from my Physics test. Meh. Whatever.