Monday, November 24, 2008
Everything feels incredibly strained when we're together and I feel like I'm forcing myself upon them. At this point, they've stopped being friends and are now somewhere between acquaintances and friends. I'm not included in any outings anymore and it kind of sucks.
Therefore, my return to California now seems imminent and necessary. Come July 31st, 2009 -- I am driving me and all my stuff back to sunny California and getting out of this hellhole called North Carolina.
learn something. I mean, what a concept! Huzzah for the possibility of learning! I just have to get through this class (and the final) and then I'm going to go home and teach myself what I have not learned these past 13 weeks.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Physics I lab ended on Wednesday. It was one of the better days of my life.
I have two tests the week we get back from Thanksgiving. Therefore, it is better that I am not celebrating Turkey Day with my beloved family. I can study instead, which is what I really need to do.
I'm making more friends and the friends I've got are fine. We play sports and apparently have Fun Fridays and it's fine. I'm learning to not do things that I don't want to (like watch them play "Call of Duty" for hours on end) and it's good. Slowly but surely.
Oh! And it snowed Thursday night! Snow! (It was cold...brr...) It's all melted now but it was fun to wake up to a blanket of snow on top of everything (including my car).
Thursday, November 20, 2008
School stuff, my biology test was fine. It could have gone better (a higher A) but I'm over the whole bit. I'm studying physics hardcore because I really need to. Organic is organic. I am as boring as a bag of rocks right now.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I just try and blog regularly to keep you all in the loop.
Emotionally, I've decided every day is a struggle. Struggle makes it sound more dramatic than it is. Every day is question mark. Will I be moody Jessica or happy Jessica today? Moody Jessica tends to win out but I'm working on it.
On a much more positive note, I Skype-d around the world yesterday with my two best friends in the entire freaking world and was reminded that I am loved and wanted and blah blah blah. It's just good to remember that people care for you. Blah blah blah.
I have a biology test on Tuesday and then I'm home free until after Thanksgiving. Speaking of which, I will be staying here in North Kakalaky and bumming around and working and whatnot. It's a bit of a bummer because I really want to be home, but I'm a big girl now. (Supposedly.) I should learn to suck it up. ...or live some place closer to my family.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
So I got my Organic results back and I did fine. My friend Chris did better than me again and I was in a pissy mood all day as a result. If I could truly express how innately more intelligent I am ... it's just offensive that he does better to be honest.
My "friends" are leaving me out of get-togethers and whatnot and whatever random-close-friendship-thing Kevin and I had ... well, that's over and done with too. I can tell that this whole situation is going to turn out like my last year at NYU -- lots of lonely nights and general bad things for my psyche.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
I'm just chugging along with school at this point. A little bio here, and little organic there and some physics now and again.
In more social news, some friends(?) from SIP (not leaders but students in the class I lead for) invited me out to lunch and I accepted. We ate Japanese on Friday (after my test) and they're a cute bunch.
I am so boring. I think dripping snot is more exciting at this point.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
It's been terribly interesting to be in the South for this election. I come from liberal locations. California, liberal. New York City, super freaking liberal. North Carolina, pretty freaking conservative. It is important to note that many colleges run liberal so even here the Obama supporters are pretty outspoken. However, I can sense and see more conservatives than I ever have in my past.
One of my good friends here is a conservative. And the beauty of our friendship is how much we talk about politics. He sells conservatism and I listen. I rarely hear such comments and thoughts so it's rather refreshing to hear something so different than what I know.
Today, we were sitting in the car and listening to the radio and man, he was pissed. "We're heading towards socialism" and other such comments were uttered. What point we did agree on was GW's legacy. This is what George W. has done for his nation. He screwed up so bad, that he's turning red states blue. Blue! If Obama wins in NC, it'll be the first time the state's been blue in 30 years! That's a generation's worth of time!
I just can't believe it's November 4th. And I was thinking about what must be going on through the candidates' heads today and what will happen to them tomorrow. Whoever wins (and loses), will they rest? Do they have to keep campaigning? They won! (They lost.) It's just insane. And this time, I think the "liberal" media may finally get it right. Obama may very well become our first black president (which almost seems nominal at this point) and a Dem will be in office but this time, it's happening. I was so sure in '04 that Kerry would win (as a result of my location (NYC)) and was fairly shocked he lost. But this time around, GW has pretty much screwed the pooch for his party and this country. That seems to be the only thing the entire country agrees on at this point.
Like most things relating to me, this entry's all over the place but I'm not here to promote or condemn anything. The election has been so present in our lives for the past 18 months that I'm not sure what we're going to do tomorrow. Or next week. Or next month.
I hope you all voted and had an exciting voting experience. Huzzah for implementing your civic duties!
Saturday, November 1, 2008
I didn't really, but when you get straight freaking A's for 5 months, getting anything less is a complete disaster. I don't want to talk about my grade or how much I completely abhor this professor. I just have to move on (because there's nothing I can do) and learn me some physics.
Halloween was fun. The post-bacc crew (we've grown quite a bit from the Fantastic Four) had a little shindig which involved spaghetti-and-meatballs, me and Joy being the only people to wear costumes, and my friends speaking Chinese to my Dad. All in all, it was a good night.